Nothing

This is what I’m staring at right now….

I’m feeling down, frustrated, angry, sad, annoyed… Anything really but happy, and clearly I have everything to be happy about. I have a great husband who helps out, I don’t have to work thanks to my wonderful husband and my children can be a handful and drive me crazy, but they are pretty great kids.

I can’t shake the feelings I’m having, I can’t really talk to anyone, and when I try to be happy and not yell over everything it gets bottled up and then I explode… I feel bad but I don’t have a release for the way I’m feeling so when I suppress it it doesn’t go over very well.

I need to make a change or it’s not going to end very well…

Bad mom moment

Or just to tired to give a crap right now.
Baby k was up till 3 crying and just wanting to be held, rocked, patted, back rub, you name it she wanted it. When she finally fell asleep she screamed bloody murder. Mr. B finally got her to sleep around 3 and then he had to be up at 6:00 😦 I feel so bad for him.
Then she was up bright and early at 6:30 to eat and then up for the day at 8… Sadly though I was up at 6 to wake mr. B up and ya it wasn’t fun. All together I got about 4.5 hours of total sleep.

So JAM has been doing this for about 3 hours…..

Do I feel bad? Heck yes….

Am I too tired to deal with it? Heck yes!

His brother is coming today when mr.b gets off work so he will finally have someone to play with… And my mommy guilt won’t be so bad 😦

Moments

Like this make being a mom worth it…..